hope

waiting.

waiting.

waiting.

its confusing. life is. is it worth the trouble to plan the days ahead, i wonder. think ahead, yes. it gives hope.but putting it together just seems tiring. its all with the final goal in mind. its easy to lose ourselves in our conquest for what might seem to be our dreams. hope gives us something to believe in, something to look forward to. yet, can hope delude and bring us away from what it is to be.

there are so many things that have changed. priorities perhaps. what i feared will come to happen if change does not take place. its when novelty wears off that i realize wwhat i had been thinking of it. hopefully the goal will not be that. i hope this waiting is not a form of escapism. it shouldnt be. not emo. just thoughtful.