Realizations

More than anything, laziness has led to the stagnation of this blog, or all by this author actually. having the thoughts, but not actually putting them into words is just too easy to do. However, if thoughts were to simply go past, would life be just as meaningful?

Two and a half months have passed since the start of the new school year. Indeed, time really flew without me even noticing it. I'm not quite sure if I'm enjoying school really, i often find only realize how much i enjoyed something after it has passed. Sad, but true. Very often recently, I've been hoping that the decisions that i've made have not been wrong ones. The only consolation i can offer myself at these times is that two years will pass really quickly, live them up, and they will be gone.

I started off idealistic. Great plans, great missions, great Dreams. i perhaps never realized how easy it was to lose these ideals, especially in the face of the paper chase (poet to be?). Nonetheless, it came back to me that one night at nowhere less than that good old hawker centre. Sitting there observing well everything, the realization hit. It made me just so much happier.

There was suddenly meaning to everything. We learn to look on the bright side of everything. I am happy because I am able to sit in an air-conditioned classroom receiving an education. I am happy because I am on track to acheiving my goals. I am happy because i see meaning. Really, it is doing things for others that we are happy.

Unfortunately, i do not understand why so many do not see this. Why, community service is but only a gold border to that university application?

I want to do more in Life. I know what i want to do, but the question is can i achieve it? getting into the course is but the first step, will my earlier decision have affected my chances? i sincerely hope not... What more can i do to realize this dream? But first, i must make sure that in acheiving this dream, i do not lose sight of the final goal. What can i do now?